I have an awesome job. There's just no denying it. Although I'm not too sure how long the awesomeness will last. I think I'm still in that excited phase of starting my career, doing fairly well, getting alot of attention and appreciation. But there's always a cynical way to look at things. And unfortunately, I've become slighly cynical.
Till about 2 months ago, I was so sure of not finding the kind of job I wanted, I started mentally preparing myself that I will have to eventually settle for something less than perfect. Then, out of the blue, things fell into place. For a while I was insanely elated about the whole situation. Then, slowly, I started turning cynical about this little success. I don't know why I'm being like that. I don't really have a good enough reason to feel like that. If you look at it positively, I'm working with the world's second largest hotel chain. My job role is exactly what I wanted. I'm getting to learn so so much, courtesy the fact that I have been working without a department head for the last 3 weeks. As a fresher, within the first month of starting this job, I got to prove myself, I got to handle the entire department, I got to make my decisions, I got to make my own mistakes and learn from them. I have recieved way too much appreciation for my work. Most of the other department heads treat me with alot of respect, for handling things well. Even though my designation is of an associate, I get more respect and help than I probably deserve. To top it all, I'm working in an industry where I have so many people to fall back on.
What upsets me a little is the rate at which people move in this industry. A lot of people I liked here, alot of people who liked me, have moved or are going to move. That is what makes me a little insecure. Although their movement only makes my network wider and stronger. What makes it better is that it is my network, not my dad's network in this industry. Even then, I'd rather have them here. People who I can trust and who I can fall back on. People who know me for what I am, and encourage me to be that person.
I'm not sure if I can call all this 'success' since its been only a month and a half. But sometimes, this appreciation, this faith that I can handle things, this respect, it scares me a little. It makes me wonder, how life would have been if this hadn't happened to me. I've seen a lot of people around me, have major ups and downs in their careers. This is my first high, in the real world, the lows are inevitable. But then again, I prefer this to a monotonous stagnant career.
I compare this job alot of times to my AIESEC career. It was very similar. Too much attention, too much appreciation, I think I got a little spoilt! So when I didn't get what I wanted, I didn't take it too well. I guess I will also have my share of ups and downs in the future, I just need to be mentally prepared and less cynical.
Today, my work speaks for myself. I'm waiting for the day when my name will speak for itself.
Till about 2 months ago, I was so sure of not finding the kind of job I wanted, I started mentally preparing myself that I will have to eventually settle for something less than perfect. Then, out of the blue, things fell into place. For a while I was insanely elated about the whole situation. Then, slowly, I started turning cynical about this little success. I don't know why I'm being like that. I don't really have a good enough reason to feel like that. If you look at it positively, I'm working with the world's second largest hotel chain. My job role is exactly what I wanted. I'm getting to learn so so much, courtesy the fact that I have been working without a department head for the last 3 weeks. As a fresher, within the first month of starting this job, I got to prove myself, I got to handle the entire department, I got to make my decisions, I got to make my own mistakes and learn from them. I have recieved way too much appreciation for my work. Most of the other department heads treat me with alot of respect, for handling things well. Even though my designation is of an associate, I get more respect and help than I probably deserve. To top it all, I'm working in an industry where I have so many people to fall back on.
What upsets me a little is the rate at which people move in this industry. A lot of people I liked here, alot of people who liked me, have moved or are going to move. That is what makes me a little insecure. Although their movement only makes my network wider and stronger. What makes it better is that it is my network, not my dad's network in this industry. Even then, I'd rather have them here. People who I can trust and who I can fall back on. People who know me for what I am, and encourage me to be that person.
I'm not sure if I can call all this 'success' since its been only a month and a half. But sometimes, this appreciation, this faith that I can handle things, this respect, it scares me a little. It makes me wonder, how life would have been if this hadn't happened to me. I've seen a lot of people around me, have major ups and downs in their careers. This is my first high, in the real world, the lows are inevitable. But then again, I prefer this to a monotonous stagnant career.
I compare this job alot of times to my AIESEC career. It was very similar. Too much attention, too much appreciation, I think I got a little spoilt! So when I didn't get what I wanted, I didn't take it too well. I guess I will also have my share of ups and downs in the future, I just need to be mentally prepared and less cynical.
Today, my work speaks for myself. I'm waiting for the day when my name will speak for itself.
